Stumbling through motherhood. Let's hope I don't mess this kid up for life.

Lessons learned: socks

by BottleMom

A small bit of advice for anyone…

When you have a baby and you buy a pack of socks, no matter how much you like them, don’t buy them also in one size up. Or if you do, make sure they’re totally different colors. Because when you transition from one sock size to the next, it’s really hard to hold up teenie socks for a 6 month old and compare to a teenie sock meant for an 18 month old. They all look about the same size.

Trust me on this one. Just buy a different brand or color when you go up a sock size.


Body post-baby, 19 months later. NSFW!

by BottleMom

I’m sure I’ve lamented many a time about my body post-baby. Well this is my second summer since having my son and I’m already pretty bummed at the state of my body. Last year at this time I was wrapping up breastfeeding so I still had something to fill my boobs. Now they’re teenie. Teenie and saggy.

To put it in perspective for 99% of the planet that has any boob at all, imagine taking your bra and putting it on backwards. I don’t care how padded that bra is, your back is too flat to fill it with anything. There’ll be a big gaping hole between your skin and the bra. That’s what it’s like for me when I wear even A-cup padded bras. That leaves tank tops or even tshirts that go lower than my collarbone to be difficult to wear.

I went to Target and saw a cute dress so I tried it on. Smallest size they had. Flowy bottom, which is good since I’ve got some serious flabby skin around my stomach. Not only did the padded bra I had on still not fill out the fabric of the dress, but as a result the neckline pretty much fell straight to my belly button. Boobs are needed to keep shirts up. No boobs = you might as well take a scissor and cut your shirt in half.

So to really scare anyone further, here are some pics. These are NOT my boobs (are you insane, there’s no way I’m posting that!) but they give you an idea of the difference in even someone who had a small chest in the first place. I repeat: these are NOT NOT NOT pictures of me!

Before, I had small boobs but they were perky:

Okay so the boob on the right is smaller than the one on the left, so forget that wonky one on the right for all intensive purposes.

And the sad state of them now (again, NOT my actual boobs!):

Sad. Small and saggy.

Then there’s the tummy issue. I couldn’t even find a half-decent picture online that would show that situation, except for the one below. Yes, that’s right…when you have piles of loose skin, when you bend over, gravity pulls down while the bit of your abs contract, thus making it look like a pile of dough is being sucked down. I don’t know about most people, but mine NEVER did anything remotely close pre-baby. Now, it’s totally like this:

This might as well be my photo, because that's exactly what my stomach does.

To top it off, it’s pretty clear that I have “diastis recti”, which is what happens when you get pregnant: your abs split apart to make room for the womb. Except it doesn’t always close back together. The test is to lay back and see how many fingers apart you can feel between your stomach (pre-baby, even though I didn’t have flat abs, I didn’t have some gap in my body). I can do this:

Her situation isn't so bad...

And if I want to get really creepy, I can actually grip my hands around the sides of my abs, like I’m the Hulk ripping open my chest cavity. And you can’t do stomach crunches or anything like that anymore because it just makes a “cone” shape. You’re limited to just a few ab exercises, like the plank, which don’t require the curling of your body.

I really just wanted to bitch about the state of my body post-baby. I love my son to death and he was absolutely worth it, but dayam…I just didn’t think it was possible to have boobs that can’t even fit into a padded A-cup bra. Oh to go bakc and enjoy the brief moment where I was a small C. Sigh.

 

 


Theme parks for the ultra fussy or developmentally delayed toddler

by BottleMom

Since there's a billion pictures of Legoland online, I played my "lazy card" and just Google Image searched this one rather than uploaded my own.

My wonderful friend Carrie hooked us up last night with some tickets to Legoland. Having had a relatively “blah” Saturday with Baby Boy at the Discovery Science Center courtesy of their “Free Saturdays if you flash your BoA bank card”, we were stoked to get a chance to do something a bit more fun with him.

In case it’s not already clear from this blog, Baby Boy is quite a challenge. Going out and doing stuff with him isn’t just full of the regular toddler issues, but we also have to cater to his sensory issues, feeding delays, and developmental delays.

I Googled some tips from other people who have taken their autistic kids to Legoland to get some input on what to expect.

This was our first real theme park visit with Baby Boy, so I’ll share our experience with anyone who has never been to a theme park with a toddler, let alone one who has random issues.

Of course it’s all about planning and packing ahead. Because I’m ultra paranoid about sh*t getting stolen, I wrapped a bike lock around my stroller so that in the event there were any rides that were Baby Boy-friendly, we could all go on them without someone having to stand back and guard the stroller. VERY glad that I did this. If you want your Bugaboo or BOB stroller stolen, be my guest. There’s a whole ring of thieves who do it at Disneyland, I assume the same occurs at other theme parks. Legoland has great stroller parking areas, you’re not just plopping your stroller in front of a ride and walking off. They have actual designated stroller parking areas, most of them in little fenced off sections that are made of metal bars which work perfectly with the bike lock.

I also downloaded the Legoland app for my phone, but you might as well skip that. It was useless.

Legoland is pretty cool with you bringing in your own food despite what their signs say. So we had a cooler filled with a sippy cup of milk, an extra “package” of milk, a grilled cheese sandwich I had made for Baby Boy to eat on the drive down (he consumed at best what would be the equivalent of one bit for an adult with a small mouth), some ice packs, 3 water bottles, an extra empty sippy cup (the plan was to have him drink some formula before forcing him to take a nap, but you can’t reuse a cup that’s had formula in it after awhile), and some baby puree pouches.

While San Diego is cold in the morning, it gets hot ultra fast. In our case we just left our jackets in the car and suffered until it got warm, but that doesn’t fly for toddlers. I always carry a spare outfit for him in my diaper bag so I knew that midway through the morning we could just change him into something lighter as the day wore on. We went there with him wearing jeans, a longsleeve shirt and a jacket…we left with him just wearing jeans and a tshirt (we would have put shorts on him but I was worried in the Duplo area he would scrape up his knees).

I also made sure I had one of my swaddle blankets and some clips, which I normally keep in my stroller basket anyway. This was for naptime, the swaddle blanket is lightweight enough to keep things cool while blocking out the world and the clips keep the blanket attached to the stroller canopy.

As you can see by how much we packed, an umbrella stroller is a no-go. Not only did we need it to hold all of our crap, but also because Baby Boy gets uncomfortable pretty quickly so we wanted him to be as comfy as possible for the sake of our eardrums and blood pressure.

Sunblock: goes without saying. Bring that in the stroller too because it’ll wear off quickly, the San Diego sun gets brutal pretty fast, and you don’t want to be stuck buying $10 sunblock for a teenie blob a the Lego Drugstore. If they had a drugstore.

As I do with any outing, I only use 12-hour diapers. You don’t want to take a fussy kid in and out of a stroller to change a diaper every other hour. We went through 3 diapers between 9am and 4pm. As any parent can attest to, you also never know when or where you’ll have a chance to change a diaper. I had to change one on the big grassy area in front of the Lego Las Vegas strip.

So how did he do?

Well in the morning he was pretty mellow so we actually took him on a ride, some Fairy Tale boat ride that just cruises along a water path while you ooohh and ahhh over fairy tale characters made of Lego. Rides in general are a bad scene with Baby Boy because you can’t just get off and since he’s so squirmy, that’s pretty dangerous if he’s wiggling around and tries to get off. But the boats on this one actually have a pretty high wall from the very bottom so as long as your kid is standing/crawling where your feet are and not where you’re sitting, it was pretty safe. Any time he started to whine, we would pull the ol’ “oohhh look! what’s that?” and point to some random Lego creature.

After that we wandered around. Legoland is part water park which I knew in advance would be a bit of a “danger” (kids with autism and/or sensory issues aren’t fans of getting kind of wet). One water area had swings on the outskirt of the water section so we put Baby Boy in one because he gets his vestibular sense on when he’s in one. He was liking it so much that my husband told me to go on a ride in the meantime. Which I did. Felt a little weird to go on my own but by the end of the day I had gone on 3 rides by myself since my husband hates rides.Which is funny…I loathe theme parks but love rides. He loves theme parks, hates rides.

At this point we knew we had to tucker out Baby Boy or we would have no chance in hell of him passing out in his stroller. This was kind of a gamble, at his age he rarely just passes out in a stroller and when he does, it’s somewhere quiet like the mall. We walked him around the Legoland section where they recreate famous cities and Star Wars scenes out of Lego.

Somewhere that morning we managed to feed him by plopping him in front of a ride so he could be somewhat distracted. Those food pouches are usually high in fruit = highly acidic = high chance of Baby Boy vomiting it all up. This is also why a good stroller comes in handy, he wiggles and fights too much in an umbrella stroller. Because our motherload stroller had a tray, we were able to make sure he was snacking by putting graham crackers and goldfish in the tray for him to have regular access. It’s at times like that where I’m so over all the feeding stuff, I really wish I could stop relying on purees so much when we go out. Actually I wish I could stop relying on purees, period.

When we wanted to have him nap we clipped the Aiden & Anais swaddleblanket to the canopy visor doodad. Which then prompted Baby Boy to have a complete mother huge tantrum. It was either have him nap or go straight home. Having him not nap wasn’t an option because the level of crankiness that would eventually set in wouldn’t have made it a fun trip at all and thus defeat the purpose. My husband had to push the stroller because hearing Baby Boy reach that level of hysterical tantrum where his face gets red and blotchy makes my skin crawl and I sweat like a pig. Mothers aren’t supposed to hear their babies that upset. Eventually after 20 mins of freaking out, he kind of became comatose. And then he passed out.

When he fell asleep I lowered the seat to a full recline (briefly waking him up, causing a mini crying session that could only be solved by walking with the stroller really fast to lull him back to sleep). Then I went on 2 whole rides. One was particularly nerve-wracking but knowing that my husband will never take our kid(s) on rollercoasters, I feel like I need to stay on my a-game so that I won’t be a wimp when the time comes to take a kid on a ride.

A little over an hour later Baby Boy woke up in a surprisingly good mood. He didn’t eat the second food pouch I brought but he snacked sufficiently on graham crackers, goldfish, and yogurt melts. I cannot tell you the variety of snacks I brought: Cheerios, graham crackers, goldfish, yogurt melts, teething biscuits, and lord knows what else.

Next up was to take Baby Boy to this big sandbox-like area. Baby Boy’s sensory issues in the past have made it so that he loathes touching sand, walking in sand, and playing in parks that have sand. This time however he not only did he go in, but he actually touched the sand a bunch of times and spent a good half hour just walking around in it. I do recommend for people to hover over their toddlers because older kids are a-holes who will shovel and dump sand around without looking, thus resulting in your kid being covered in sand.

Oh an absolute necessity: antiseptic hand wipes. Typically baby wipes and hand sanitizer are all you would carry in a diaper bag but I also carry antiseptic hand wipes and they were big time needed for this place. You need something that’ll sterilize and wipe clean all at the same time. Toddlers put their hands in their mouths all the time. While I’m okay with him getting dirty, I’m not going to spend an entire day without wiping his hands a few times. If my hands feel gross, then I make sure his hands are cleaned too.

After being quite pleased with the sand pit, the final step was to take him for some playtime in the Duplo park section. It was  like a massive park with a bunch of play structures with some Duplo toys tossed in. Baby Boy was like a kid on speed. He was in toddler heaven. The ground was made of that cushy cork stuff so he could fall without hurting himself. He was running around like a madman. I can’t remember the last time I saw him race around like that. We had to have been there for at least an hour. This is probably where Legoland shines if you have a toddler because they divide it up into 3 sections, progressing from Infant to Older Toddler.

Eventually I started to worry that Baby Boy was overexerting himself in the heat because he hadn’t consumed that much liquid. Plus I hate the parking lot dance when an event comes to a close. At this point he had gotten a hold of a Duplo toy car and refused to put it down. Which resulted in the motherload of all tantrums, the kind where I’m sure people thought we were kidnapping him as we dragged him out of the park.

But that’s fine by me, I’d much rather he cry because he has to leave rather than cry because he has to stay somewhere.

Back to the autism thing…

Over by some of the water areas they have these massive pods with built-in blowdryers in them. They’re family-sized, all-over blowdryers. They’re $5 to use. I don’t know how loud they are but for anyone whose kid is sensory-seeking and loves fans blowing on them (like Baby Boy, he looooooooves my blow dryer) that would be a decent option, especially if they loathe getting wet. However the downside is that if it were really loud, that could turn off other kids who are especially sensitive in the auditory category.

There’s also enough secluded areas between sections where you could take a kid who is getting overwhelmed and needs to be calmed down. For me I feel like that’s really important because if your kid is having a meltdown, it’s hard to calm them down when there’s chaos and screaming kids all around you.

So in summary: Legoland. Two very enthusiastic thumbs up. If you have a toddler, bring everything but the kitchen sink because trust me, you’ll need it.

 


Speech Therapy Report Card 5/2

by BottleMom

So Baby Boy has been a handful the past few days, he hasn’t done too well in the therapy. Today he cried on his way to the Speech Therapy room, which is odd because he loves that room so much (it’s full of toys) he usually runs to that room before it’s even  his appointment.

Today’s report card from speech therapy:

Today we worked on: “All Done” (sign language) with transitions
Functional play with cars down ramp.
1-step simple directions other than “give me”.

I want to get better at: “Kiss dog”, “put here”, “in trash”

Activities I should do at home: List of development toys on back of sheet, music with hand motions.

So here’s the list of development toys the speech therapist recommended:

  • Cause and effect pop up toy with knobs and buttons and doors that pop up with animals inside. The reason I haven’t bought this toy is because it’s crazy overpriced and hard to find. When you buy it off Amazon, there’s so many variations and you don’t get to pick which version you get. Obviously I’ll have to suck it up and buy it, but I’m hoping I can find one on Craigslist or at Children’s Orchard first.
  • Balls and Cars for pushing back/forth yeah Baby Boy has plennnntttyyy of these. We are the House of Balls. And not just the nutsack kind.
  • Animals and barn. This one was tough because the one they have in therapy is pretty pricey. I found the cheapest barn animals to be a set of rubber bath toys, which has worked out well because Baby Boy loooooves them.
  • Books – simple pictures like “100 First Words” or “Baby First Word”. Why yes, I do already own “100 First Words” thank you very much.
  • Big stacking blocks (plain/colored) no letters, words, or numbers. I guess the idea is to have nothing on them so it’s not distracting. I did buy some stacking cups but there’s some prints on them…this one will be a little hard to find because big baby blocks tend to have animals and letters all over them.

So overall I already have the stuff on the list, I just need to get that damn pop up toy and find some plain genetic blocks.


Mutha effin’ genetics

by BottleMom

So I have been trying to nail down this whole genetics nonsense since at least February. Now that it’s May 1st, my HMO had to check with my insurance to make sure whatever bloodwork the geneticist wanted is allowed. Then that approval had to be sent back to the geneticist.

Then the geneticist had to review the approval stuff.

And today, the 3rd of May, I was finally able to make an appointment. This place only has one pediatric nurse who does this. The earliest appointment I could get?

June 12th.

June effing twelfth.

I have no idea why people are so terrified of socialized healthcare…I don’t get seen any quicker for things here in the US than I ever did in Canada. If anything, I got seen faster because I didn’t have to worry about what doctors were in network or affiliated or what my insurance would cover.

So it’ll be five months from the day we discovered we needed to get our genetics on to when we’ll actually get some blood drawn and who knows how long it’ll take after that to actually run the damn test (just checked online…6-8 weeks. Sigh).

I’m pretty damn annoyed. The only thing that’s making me feel better is that I found out that all the tests were approved. Not just the Fragile X test, but also the Micro Array CGH test which isn’t usually covered.